Holding On

i weep for i believe you lost now
i cannot see you when i close my eyes
i cannot hear your voice in the silence of the night
i have stopped dreaming that i am your wife

the touch of sunlight no longer makes me cry
how could it be when it is the reminder of your love?
the wind no longer gives me chills
is it because i've gone numb now and can no longer feel?

all those years we have spent together
now all lost, my heart cannot remember
and yet i feel incomplete without the pain
gone are the dreams, lost and spent

what will i do once i've stopped thinking of you?
act all is normal? that i cannot do
i bleed, i drown, i long for the love that is only mine
i want those days back, or the memories of time

/amra


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why i write sad poems, i can only guess.