Coffee Shop Engagement

i sit here sipping coffee
watching people as they pass
i think about my future
and some regrets about my past

dim lights streaming over
jazz music playing loud
strangers talking gaily
perplexed thoughts, am i mad?

i think of him, i think of him
i think of him and us
i think of the 3 years we've been together
broken promises and trust

hurtful words have been spoken
photographs torn and burned
unforgivable lies spun and woven
never will i let the same man hurt me again

he comes now to meet me
with his excuses well and planned
he showers me with hugs and kisses
old tricks to which i once succumbed

i look at him, oh bitter stares
tears about to fall
thoughts swimming in my head
my heart pounding strong

he says he loves me
to leave, he cannot bear
he begs me for forgiveness
gives reasons to start again

now the tears i've held back
fall unceasingly at last
people around us are now staring
no doubt, curious about us

i clench my fist, i grab my purse
and determined, i stand up
i walk away, i walk away
to a new life i must

/amra


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thanks to starbucks for setting me in the mood to write this one.

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